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[11 Feb 2006|11:02am]

Durr.. I have, like, no time for livejournal anymore.

Hmmmmmmm um... Life is okay. I mean it's good, but there is definitely need for improvement.

Not on my part.

Uh.

People worry too much.


If you only knew....
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[31 Jan 2006|01:25am]

Life is actually going extremely well.. minus a few things here and there.

Some friensd and I are taking Tango lessons at Hopkins! WOOOT! And some of us are going to take Salsa lessons as well. Hot, right?

I like being able to see my friends all of the time, whenever I want. I love having control over my time and it's usage. I love it.

Went to DC last weekend. It was sunny and beautiful. I spent 100 bucks at kiehls.. oooops... we're going back on Saturday :P

In other news, however, I think I may have to quit my quartet. I tried so hard to just suck up all of the bullshit and drama and keep going, but I'm getting so tired of it. I have things to do. And I don't feel like I'm even really a part of the quartet. I'm just the outside member. They decided the piece we're playing without me.. they decide when to rehearse without me. They cancel the rehersals I can for-sure do and schedule make-up ones at times that I can't do. I rearrange my schedule in order to do them.. and they get cancelled at the last minute. I can't handle this right now. I love them to death.. I'm just getting frustrated and unhappy with the quartet itself. Music should never make anyone unhappy.

Time to sleep. I've barely been sleeping the last few nights. It's catching up.
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[22 Jan 2006|11:16pm]

Brian and I have been stoned and/or drunk every night since we got back. EXCEPT TONIGHT! Weird..

I fucked some shit up last night. Oh well, it happens, right?

Bri and I found an apartment we like. We're putting in our applications tomorrow or Tuesday. If we get it, we should be moving in sometime in May.

Aspen fellowship audition was okay. Next is Youth Orchestra of the Americas on the sixth. I hope Bri and I get in. They're touring Europe this year. I have no idea when my Manicini audition is... they have yet to schedule me a time.

Being single is okay. I like how much more I get to see my friends. I'm just getting kind of lonely sometimes. I mean, I have Bri and I love him to death, but it's not the same.. you know? And there's like, nobody at Peabody that I haven't met yet, pretty much. So.. haha yeaaaaaaa.

I just have to work on my shit and try to remember to take my pills. I have a ridiculously busy day tomorrow and tons and tons of things that I have to do in my alotted free time. God damnit.

I miss home sometimes.. and then I realise that this is my home now. I'm still hoping for my fantasy life some day.
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[18 Jan 2006|02:21pm]

Soooo I'm back in Baltimore n shizzle. It's FANTASTIC aside from a few very uncomfortable moments...

BUT YES. Alcohol + hookah bars + pot + bestest friends EVAR = IMSOFUCKINGGLADTOBEBACK!

Just thought I'd let you all know I'm alllliiiiive and WELL! :D Back to practising! BYESSS








PS. Please do not tell people I say shit that I don't. You've made me very angry more than once this year and I'm getting really tired of it. I'm not angry so much as upset that you would even want to hurt me like that. I'm sure you know who you are.
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[14 Jan 2006|04:26am]

Today was sweet. Bri and I got coffee with Drew and then we went drunk (ish) bowling with Max and Kristen.

I leave on Sunday. YAY!!!

I'm really going to miss my mummy a lot.

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[12 Jan 2006|01:00am]

A new beginning.
It was hard, but it was the right thing to do.
I'm flying solo.
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[11 Jan 2006|02:04am]

So, I guess no one has seen The Up Series. You all should, really. It's quite fascinating and has really helped me figure out what it is that I want out of life.

Being a young person, you, or at least I, tend to.. believe you have all the time in the world to do what you want to do, make the kind of living you want to, get married, have a family, what have you. You really don't though. You don't have time to not go to school or to sit around on your bum thinking that you're young and have the time to do nothing.

Where are people with certain kinds of mindframes going to end up?

Myself and Christian as examples:
It would've been so much easier to know we were not going to work together from earlier on if we had talked about things. One conversation I remember (last summer when I was having to make the hardest decision of my life), was.. my telling him that anyone's dreams can become reality. It's not black and white. They're not two whole separate things. If you work hard enough and want it hard enough.. you really can do just about anything you want. And he said to me... no. Dreams and reality are separate. You have to know what you can and cannot do. What is reasonable and what is just plain silly.

It's all very interesting.. and I've put a lot of thought into where I want to be by the time I'm thirty, you know? What do I want to be doing.. what kind of income do I want.. where do I want to live.. do I want to get married.. have children.. and what kind of lives do I want to be able to provide for them?

Of course, I've thought about all of that before.. who hasn't? I just didn't realize how little time you have to set the foundation for your perfect life.

I didn't realize that.. college is the time.. It's the time when you're around the most people. My mum tells me she wished she'd known that. It's the best and easiest time in your life to find your life partner. And it's certainly the easiest time to figure out what you want to do and how you want to get there.

My mum told me I was very practical today. I think it's the first time she's ever said anything close to that.

Wow.

I've got a lot to think about.Collapse )
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[10 Jan 2006|04:48pm]

Has anybody seen The Up Series? Or even parts of it?

Thoughts?
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[08 Jan 2006|09:30pm]

I live in my head too much. I feel like I'm stuck in this boring as shit life and there's a million, trillion things I want to do that I can't.

I run away a lot.

I want to run away now.

Today, I want to run away to here:



Tomorrow? Who knows. I want to be constantly on the move. As soon as one thing bores me, I want to move onto another. I'd rather be poor off my ass with all these amazing, wonderful experiences and stories to tell... than some rich bitch who's only ever seen the pathetic country she grew up in. Is that wrong?

I don't want to be tied down anywhere. I want to fly free.

And I want to leave now. If only I could.

I'm getting sick of living only in my head.
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[07 Jan 2006|03:21am]

I kind of want to drop out of school.
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[04 Jan 2006|01:33am]

Today was lovely!!
Bri and I shopped broadway, got matching tattoos, shopped bellevue square, and then saw Brokeback Mountain (SO FUCKING SAD.. but oh so good.)

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[01 Jan 2006|11:53pm]

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[31 Dec 2005|01:49pm]

HAIR HELP!! :D

Okay. So.. basically, I'm lazy and hate doing my hair (suprise, suprise!). So.. I want to cut a lot of it off.

Here's what it looks like now.Collapse )

Here's what I'm thinkin.Collapse )

I'm leaning most towards the first or second one. More-so the first. BUT I WANT OPINIONS!!

As for the colour.. I'm not going to dye it until I cut it.. Once I cut it, it'll pretty much all be my natural colour (yuck!). So.. I'm thinking white-blond and pink still.. but, suggestions are always welcome :)

So, come on! Help help!

"What are you thinking?!"
"OMG cut it, please! THANK GOD"
"Doens't matter, you look bad either way."

I DONT CARE. Just tell me :)
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[29 Dec 2005|06:49pm]

I want to go home.

And I'm back on Xanax.Collapse )
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[28 Dec 2005|01:07am]

ginagershon
You're a Boi Dyke!

You kick ass, dear. Serious, serious ass. You're
the type of girl who can change the timing belt
on my Camaro, have sex with me on the hood,
then do shots with me back at your place. Will
you marry me?



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Hmm. Interesting.
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[27 Dec 2005|10:25pm]

MY MUM BOUGHT ME ALCOHOL.
Without me asking for it.
Score.
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[26 Dec 2005|01:24am]

Lost.. confused.. broken-hearted.
I never thought this would happen to me.
Anything else.. but not this.

EDIT-->

Thank you Christian and Fred Penner (HEHEHE I have all his CDs XD I was way into canadian childrens shows when I was little aparently)
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[25 Dec 2005|05:02pm]

Mele Kalikimaka

I did well this year :)Collapse )
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[24 Dec 2005|11:24pm]

It's weird what you realize when you move out. I feel so much older than I did 5 months ago. I feel more comfortable with me. I'm finally starting to work out everything that took control of my life in the past. I'm growing up... well.. sort of (I still get a little too excited about toys.. but I doubt that'll change).

There are a few people who really want to see me. Is it stupid that I'm scared to? It's not that I don't love them anymore. God knows, I do. But.. I am so different. At least, I assume so. I feel different. What if we don't get along as well as we did before? I think I'd rather remember things being amazing than depressing.. wouldn't you?

There is one person I was supposed to see today that I wanted to see so bad.. more than almost anyone else. However, they don't seem to be all that interested in seeing me. It's really a shame. I remember when we said goodbye before I left.. how hard it was.. how much I realized they meant to me.. do mean to me. I suppose it's changed for them. I understand. They've probably grown a lot, too. Different. Change. I just can't stop thinking about that day and when they told me they were scared of losing touch with me.. now it seems not even the slightest bit important. I'm not angry or really upset, just disappointed. I know I have a new life now and so do they. I guess I just hoped that maybe even if we had new lives we could still be a part of each others some how. I don't think that I'll ever see them again. I guess it's for the best. I'll always have that day. That goodbye. A bitter-sweet ending.

Things change. Lot's of things change.
And some things won't ever change.


I'm buying a piece of jewelry.
My beautiful baby,
Till we meet again.. rest in peace.
I'll love you always,
Mummy.


I won't ever forget.


Happy Holidays.
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[24 Dec 2005|09:00pm]

How disappointing.
I wonder if I'll ever see you again.
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